=) the life

ITS BEEN SOOO  LONGGGGG agh >.< right updates of my life aha: ups and downs and well a roller-coaster  really :/ boys,friends and family gahhh even school life is getting me down but you know, LIFE GOES ON. so lets all look at it this way. we are all human and learn from our mistakes. yes? good. so here we are. sitting down reading this :L:L blah blah blah is my life be happy with who you are and respect it and dont give a FISH ( yea i know i like the word fish in stead of shit XD ) what anyone else thinks so. BE HAPPPYYYYYY life goes on. 

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Theres more.....

Well then. I see how it is. CRASH MY DAM DREAMS. take control of my life. and I'll act like it didn't happen.. deal? I'll say ....I'm okay. when lets face the real world. huh? who in the world do you think you are. if it wasnt for my you wouldnt have that. if it wasnt for me you wouldnt be like that. now. think about it. and change what you did.

yes. i will NOT forgive you for it. but i wont haunt you for it but your ego might. i had it with lies. i had it with you. i was put though enough and i don't want you to take my dreams and hopes. but i guess you did. no wonder why i don't say much anymore. but i wont change for you. i wont change for anyone. i had it with you, i want you out of my life for a while. i just had it with you. its just not same. 

you might of got there before me but i will be better then you. i will train until i cry, i will get what i deserve. I'm going to try harder then you. until i cry? let it be so. i will learn everything i need. Faith has it before me.

^^^ that my dears is a Death Wish Glow in the dark skateboard^^sexboard more like haha^^^ its is just way to awesome for my liking haha i wish i could get it :( : /

talk about awesome photography XD ghat girl is not me (i wish) but she has my guitar XD and my style. HA. anyway witch gets me to talk about this LETS ALL HOPE FOR THE BEST!

and dont let anyone take control over you?

deal?

you are you 

no one else

no one can change that!

to end this >im going to start to save up to buy this SEXBOARD and get my ass and sit and learn to play my guitar until my fingers fall off. (ouch, i know but im promising that to myself) XDD

It was only a dream

I was thinking about him

Thinking about me

Thinking about us

What we could be...?

Open my eyes, yeah; it was only a dream,

So i travel back, down the same road 

When I'm back, no one knows

I realize, yeah, 

....

It was only a dream.  

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xxx

Promise me you wont forget

It was on the 21/11/2010 when i first talked to my dad for the first time since 6-7 years it was i must say emotional but yet i was so happy he means the world to me hes my soul and life, he might live across the world i might miss him, but i know he thinks about me everyday and i do the same.

Preying that one day we will see each other again <3 since the last time we saw each other i remember it as if it was yesterday i might of have been a lot younger but its all so clear, all the years before, as my grandma said i spent it with her or with my dad :) the closet people i had in my life,  

but when i had to go my dad said one thing to me and hugged me goodbye but i didn't know it was going to be for so long, 'promise me you wont forget who's your daddy, if you ever get lonely remember all the good times we had' his hugs where like no one else. The warmest and the best i remember that one the longest.

Could of been me or i saw him cry. I know i was; I just didn't understand. And then i had to go, as he waved goodbye and  my heart wanted to run back screaming to break free and go back i knew i should just stay quite and to do what was beaning said to me, but i couldn't the only thing that was on my mind was where was i going and why wasn't daddy coming with me? and when was the next time i will see him?

That's until now, I'm here; Have amazing friends who are always there. Think about my dad everyday wishing he was here but knowing his not. Having to hide behind a fake smile and tears of a clown. whenever something reminds me of him.

close my eyes and wish that he was here holding me again, and beaning there next to me telling me everything is okaii and that it was only a dream but i know it not not anymore.

I'm not going to give up hope i know i will see him one day for even an hour it would mean the world to me.

 I'm not sure how much i would be able to take soon i just miss him so much 

    I love you dad. more then words can say. 

xxx

Four letter word. LOTS of meaning ❤

Could be love,❤ could be toxic ☢ ☣either way it could hurt and either way it could feel good. 

there are many reasons.... But why do i have to fall for you. Once again, falling down this path of what they say is true. I never believed in this and still wont. Whats there to believe? the fact that you don't like me the same way i did for that long? i wish things could change, i wish i could change what i feel about you.. So you wouldn't have to go though this.

                       I try my best to hide it to pretend to be some one else who doesn't care but you see though my eyes and can tell that i care.

                                       Could you be the first? could you be the last? 

                                          either way this are the same from where we started. i just hope that he has no clue that i have feelings for him. either way, he will find out though me though gossip. though broken promises and lies.

                                         

                      Like a beautiful flower. When the times right it will fade, the same for me and you the feelings will fade as the time will pass and I'm telling you now if you want the chance take it now. Other wise its too late and she will fade. But its all up to you, i can wait. i don't mind you will always be there not catching me as i fall and get up to run back to you.

                            stumble and cry on the floor begging for forgives and to get over you. NOW that's too far, we both know it wont go that far XD but trust me now. take your chance and there wont be any regrets.

                                

                                                          either TOXIC,GAMES, TRUE LOVE       ☢ ☣ ❤

Fliming went wrong...

10.11.2010 the best day of her life. The worst of mine. 

Things couldn't be any worse could they? it all sounded amazing and perfect I spent weeks planing everything to the last detail, until the day came my hat got stolen -_- but I got it back and then everyone was everywhere and everything just went wrong in the end they said everyone had a good time. Well apart from a lot. Mr.Jones my lovely maths teacher on my media and it just made me laugh, the way he did everything XDD the worst was yet to come when I yet got stuck on a tree. XD funny how things went. 

              We also found the chair that Will Brown broke by swinging back on it XDD why am i never there when these things happen ??!!! 

On the whole it was pretty fun and I hope everyone enjoyed themselves and my terrible filming XDD  cant wait until i make the whole trailer and I HOPE IT WONT BE AS BAD AS EVERY THING ELSE WENT ¬_¬

Guess What?_______________you loved it

GUESS WHAT? < mine and maxx's convo thingy XDDD you really love me for sending you Taylor Swift lyrics and for the people in my media movie trailer THANK YOU. EVER SO MUCH :)

Max im telling you i will take it XDD that skateboard will be mine XD not really i'd probs give it back XDD well after all the running probs XDD HA,

you people are amazing ....

Kat thanks for writing the book XD WILL IS AN AMAZING PERSON.... > THE WILL that is REAL,,, i am not the weird. leave me alone XDD you know you love it, OH COME ON THE RANDOMNESS ROCKS 

APPLES ARE FITTTTTTTT/your gonna eat me (YOUR FACE REACTION L.O.L)

and you said  Indeed.... XDDD BUAHAUHAAHAAHAHAHHAHAAHAHa amazing dude you are amazing

Max i guess your right but i still say if we agree on one artist then it would be better XD THE OFFLINE MESSAGE 'its, a love story baby just say yes' XDD you loved it :L:L

I wonder how weird people think i am. But once you get to know me i guess im normal XD or you............

    just get used to it XDDD